Today my prayer overflows with sadness and pain. I have failed again. Oh, if only we could see we can not do anything of ourselves.
We cannot do even a little tiny bit.
We are unable to make things happen according to our own idea of ‘right’.
When we have tried as hard as we can to get it right – and still mess it up once again, I pray that we would surrender to God’s plan, and that we would not dare try to figure out why and make a new plan…
Not make a list of what to say and what not to say…
Not make a new chore schedule…
Not get that herb that is supposed to calm you…
Not try to be stronger.
None of this will ensure success in being that excellent woman, wife or mother we envisioned.
Still, we will fail.
It is my prayer that we will recognize it now and surrender…
That problem of always thinking ‘I’ can do it, with Jesus’ help.
Because we can’t. We can only do it through Jesus.
“And this is my prayer: that your love may abound more and more in knowledge and depth of insight, so that you may be able to discern what is best and may be pure and blameless until the day of Christ, filled with the fruit of righteousness that come through Jesus Christ—to the glory and praise of God.” ~ Philippians 1: 9-11
We need Him every step of the way.
I simply cannot live this life without Him filling me up.
Without His direction. Without surrender. Without remaining in the Word. (John 15: 4-5)
Today is gone. I did not listen well. I did not always answer in patience.
It was Sunday when we worship as a family, yet my tired mind and body was not fully focused on Christ.
Our young people are normal, very human children. I was not thankful.
I have failed.
But our LORD sees us in our condition, and He loves us anyway.
So let’s surrender it all at His feet now. I pray that we will just cling to Jesus!
That we will let Him direct our moments and our days.
That we accept our total weakness and let Him turn our ashes into beauty.
That He will restore the years the locusts have eaten…
When no good can come from my earthly self, His love will shine through me.
“Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.” ~Matthew 11: 28-30
“It is not my ability, but my response to God’s ability, that counts.” ~Corrie ten Boom